This summed up my week at work (and at home).
“In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.”
Just think on that for a minute. Crazy right?!
Do you ever look back and say to yourself, “How did I get here, that’s not what I had planned?”
I used to always be looking forward to something.
Achieving that goal I set for myself, getting that next big project, or even getting past a client phone call. I imagined everything being different after I got past that moment and on to the next thing.
However, most of my eagerness and anticipation was not filled with pure excitement. Nope, it had a dash of uncertainty rolled up with a little anxiety. And when something didn’t go the way I had planned…UGH! Now I can add a hefty does of “let down” on top of it all.
Sure, we can plan and plan, but in the end we go where God wants us to.
When I forget about myself and I look at things through a “God lens”, everything looks considerably different, and much clearer.
I don’t feel the pressure of that “what if”, “what then”, “when can I?”, and eventually the “what now?”.
When I look at each day as something that was given to me by God and God alone, I feel humbled and quickly put back in my place. I realize I can’t control everything. Thank heavens God is merciful and forgiving to crazy people like me!
And even though that’s not a big surprise (that I can’t control everything), there’s a LOT less pressure on what MY vision is for tomorrow or the next day. I only hope I can walk in step with His will. I hope my plans aren’t really “my plans“, but the plans He’s laid out for me.
Good or bad, I feel peace when I realize I’m where God wants me to be.
This week I’ve asked myself – What can I learn from this place I’m at? and how can I grow more on my dependance for Him?
To live a truly free life, is to live by faith.
I believe Christ is ready and waiting to show me what to do next.