Who’s In Charge…?

An article by Jason    2 Comments

Even though I lived most of my life with worry, one day, I finally gave up.

And when I say “gave up,” I don’t mean it in the literal sense. I mean, I gave my worry up to God.

Since my walk began, and more specifically, when I gave myself wholeheartedly to God, I went from falling victim to worry, to having hardly any worry at all. By giving Him 100% of myself, I begin to let go of the control. And the funny thing is, I never really had control, anyway. Turns out, I was just blinded by “myself.”

To me, worry is really tied back to the “self.” When I say “self,” I’m referring to that internal ego. Ego is the guy that’s running my brain, making sure that I BELIEVE I am the master of my own domain (as Jerry Seinfeld would say). It’s hard-wired into all of us, though, and it’s not something that can be broken easily. Ego is rock solid.

But then it hit me. The only way for me to give up worry is…true, unadulterated, amazing, radical FAITH.

And by faith, I mean huge, incredibly awesome, extra-large, superhero-style faith. It’s the kind I thought only Jesus’ Disciples had. But come to find out, I can get in on some of that, too!

And it’s not by DOING anything different – like trying harder, trying less, or giving it my all. It’s simply by taking my trust and laying it down at God’s feet. I just consciously decide to take my ego out of the picture. I give up trying to control something I really can’t.

It’s crazy….as humans, we’re hardwired for faith, yet most of us still think we’re in charge.

Sure, we can and should try our hardest at what we’re doing. We should give life all we have, do our best, and live life to it’s fullest. But we still can’t control the outcome of things. It’s a total illusion.

And what’s weird, is that by giving it up to God, I gain a sense of freedom. I’m not escaping reality. I still have problems. In fact, I have plenty, just like most people, but the control THOSE problems have on ME – is gone.

Worry really is man-made. It made me focus on the “ME” things in my life. Big or small, at the end of the day, they are all things that revolve around me. If I have solid trust, and remind myself all day – every day – every MINUTE, even – that God has a bigger plan, my worry grows smaller. The more I put my faith in God (all my faith, mind you, not just some of it), the more He helps me with my worry. Basically, the more I put my trust in Him, the less control I feel like I really need, or even want, for that matter.

I am sure that if I put God first, not only does God win, but I begin to win, too. I get one step closer to feeling more alive, to thinking more clearly, and trying to serve more intently. When I open my communication lines to Him, and put God at the steering wheel, I become a passenger in His ride, not mine.

Whenever I start to feel some stress come on, instead of running inward to see what my ego wants to do, I begin chanting “Your will be done.” It helps me keep Mr. Worry at a good safe distance.

“Matthew 6:10 –  your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”